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Friday, January 21, 2011

Happy Now Year... because we live in the present.

According to Jason Mraz anyway. He's the wordplay genius. He says the word 'new' has a future connotation to it because it has not happened. but because we live in the present everything happening now should be now, not new. ha ha.

So actually I should be sleeping at this time. but this time also happens to be my most pensive time of the day.

I know I'm like a 'live your passion and not work for money' advocate all the time. But now i really feel the pinch. I've taken on a job that I think would allow me to learn what I want but at a much lesser pay than what I was earning and what I could have earn if i continue on. or changed company in the same field. I have multiple fears that I'm trying to ignore and downplay by reminding myself of the good points. Fears like, what if a few years down the road my achievements on the career ladder is incomparable with my peers. I know I will feel terrible if I know someone my age is earning 4 to 5k on avg when I'm still struggling with an entry level pay. I guess this will happen no matter where I head towards.. Some just becomes more successful and some just gets stuck with slow progression. Now i feel foolish just voicing my fears out. Why compare? Like what bf said, just do what I want and don't worry about money.. Only people who doesn't worry about money and live their dreams get to make it big. and at the most... he will provide for me. ha ha ha. no he did not say that. he said at the most just work harder. ):

I need to believe in myself, and in order to make me believe in myself, I need to motivate myself. Surround myself constantly with positive energy. I'm so hooked on Jason Mraz's blog posts that I'm beginning to feel that he should represent a religion, or a teaching. Following a living person spreading positive vibes to people surrounding him is way more realistic than following teachings and religions handed down by god knows who and from god knows how many centuries ago and hence how reliable is it.

So in 2011, he will be my beacon of light. I will absorb all positive thinkings from him. I will motivate myself so I have reasons to believe that I can make it, someday somehow. Never thought I will say this, but I am thankful for facebook. if not for facebook, i will never have found jason mraz's beautiful writings. and he cracks me up with his shoutouts. AND he's so sweet when he talks about his fiancee. (melts) I think being intellectual and funny at the same time are the 2 qualities in men that I will always adore. Not many around, sadly.

January Report Card:

new phone

new laptop

new vision

new job

new inspirational figure

February and beyond:

Aim to acquire new knowledge,

new website

new skincare/clothes

new presents for loved ones.

I see a good year ahead. (((:

updated at 2:08 AM.