i dunno wat to blog abt...!
im under the pressure of writing something that will be interesting enough.
something that won't make me sound perpetually sad.

1st thing that popped into my mind,















new found photo of ayumi that quickly became my current wallpaper.
im like the only person around me going gaga over her. (since sec days k)
not even any guys that i know of.
why??
isn't she the most gorgeous and charismatic and talented
(and the list goes on..) star you can find for the past 10 years?
let me provide more photos for persuasion...























music is her life!
she's born to be a star, just like some megastars around. (and yes, britney is one of them. although she turns out to be a crazy nut nowadays. but really, it's not her fault. that's my opinion. she spent her youth under the public's eye so much that she grew up being warped.)
anws, her being deaf in one ear.
how would you feel if you live your whole life for something and you lost part of the ability for it?
it's like you've lost part of your life!
no reports of any depression from her,
just her saying she'll continue singing cause that's what a professional singer will do.
-claps for her courage and being so strong-
okay, enough of propaganda.

dee says i disappeared into thin air.
where got....still 15 min walk away from you whatt.
and you'll see me for bai nian sooon. hehe.
im gonna perm my hair..finally..!
if i look like medusa after that,
then maybe you won't see me afterall.

life is has been quite private for me,
that's all i can say.
it's different from the times i could blog abt anything and everything about what i do..
cause it made my day, make me sad etc.
it's been too eventful.
hah hah.
extreme sadness, extreme happiness, all rolled into days of my life.
like soap opera.
thus, me going private. blogging private.
=]
maybe it's part of growing up, or maybe it's the life i lead now,
or even maybe of influence,
i feel that i don't need and don't wish for many friends.
just those that matters.
they may be new friends, may be old friends.
as long as i can be myself with them... then they'll be enough for me.
(:

am i "emo-ing'' again?
gosh.

anw, there's an interesting fact i read from the chinese newspaper.
yes chinese, cause i was kpo-ing about the edison chen's scandal.
lol.
then i read that an average person is at their most depressed at 44 years old.
it's call the mid-life crisis.
so it's real..not an excuse made up by adults for being sad about their age.
it also says that a person's lifetime happiness is a U-shaped curve.
which reminds me of the U-shaped economy downturn my macro t-cher was talking about,
as compared to a V-shaped one. (rem????)
it says when a person reaches their golden years,
they'll be back to as happy as they were at TWENTY.
HMMMS.
so is being 20 supposed to be your happiest year in life?
hah hah.
maybe,
maybe.

time for my mj sessions with bro and gf again.
bro said he's gonna get nintendo wii frm msia.
and he bought new sims ps2 game - castaway for me already.
sheesh.
he's gonna lure me into the den of evilness....