it's hard when noone's around
i am given all the time in the world to study. but i've lost all drive and motivation. now i really know what it feels to be purely mugging, knowing you just have to study. but for what..?actually everything just boils down to my own flaws. hah.i realise i just don't know how to make demands, or know what i want. i just wish that someone will know what i want, but obviously if i don't, how will others know right? do such people exists? those that know what u want without you saying, and can just make you feel over the moon? im not supposed to be blogging. but if i can't stop my own thoughts, it's not my fault. shoot me.my new tactic: forget that i ever had anything. leave everything behind until i have the time to pick up the pieces.
updated at 9:59 PM.